Pluto In Capricorn: I've Been Going Off The Rails Since Late 2008.

 I've fallen - to probably no one's surprise - down a TikTok whole on Pluto's transit.

It's been transiting the Cardinal sign of Capricorn since late 2008. And next month it shifts into a Fixed sign - Aquarius.

Both of these facts impact me. And hopefully the worst of it is behind me.

First, I should state (before I go off the rails with my analysis) that I do believe it's always a matter of how you handle challenges. You are in control of how you receive and process information. And that's a key part of our growth in our life's journey... How you handle shit and how you learn to handle it better.

The Capricorn journey for Pluto has impacted me doubly because my Rising sign is Capricorn (at 25 degrees) and my Sun sign is Aries - another Cardinal sign. Additionally, my North Node is in Libra - another Cardinal sign. Also, my South Node is in Aries.

• Rising/Ascendant: My perception of the world and how it perceives me.
• Sun: My core personality.
• North Node: Where I am growing to reach my full potential.
• South Node: My baggage. My past.

So I have a lot of Cardinal energy. 

My natal chart. Lots of crazy shit in it.

The Cardinal signs are leaders. They initiate things.

I start a lot of shit. But that's not to say I don't continue and finish shit too. I'm just super awesome at starting the drive of things.

Anyway...

Pluto in Capricorn for the past 16 years has been a whirlwind. I transitioned on a number of things. And have had a lot of change. All in various forms of how I lead my life and others. 

But as I sat and thought about when was the most chaotic time of the past 16 years... A very clear voice in my head said, "In 2021."

So I looked up, "What dates was Pluto transiting Capricorn at 25 degrees?" 

In my mind I figured that whatever timeframes Pluto was hitting the degree of my Ascendent placement would likely be the most challenging. 

And turns out I was mother fucking right.

Dates when Pluto was hitting 25 degree of Capricorn:

• January 25, 2021 through February 27, 2021: When I started having initial conversations with various companies about leaving my agency job at the time. I was coming up on my vesting day later in the Spring, and I wanted to be able to move on right after that. So I started having conversations with a few different companies. But most were "bro-led" companies. And it seemed to be all I could attract.
• June 29, 2021 through August 10, 2021: Jesus. This one, a retrograde through my degree, was fucking brutal. I left my agency for one job, but then immediately got offered another opportunity for a tonne more money. It was with a "bro-led" company, but the money was too good to pass up. So I agreed to work with them, and at first was planning on taking on a significant long term role after my initial assignment. But then in early August, things turned. Leadership loved me, and the teams really liked me. But the company was run chaotically. And an executive who I was assigned to babysit had a drinking problem that was impacting myself and the teams. And I knew I did not want to stick with them because the CEO refused to acknowledge the problem. So I began quietly running down the clock on my assignment and putting out feelers for other opportunities. 
• November 29, 2021 through January 2, 2022: During this time I took on another role that transitioned me from the terrible company. It was with a smaller agency. They too wanted me to stay on longer term, but it was too small an environment. And I knew more than the person running the place - which made it very awkward at times. She would see me as a friend, but I very much wanted to keep things professional - because I knew if I started to become buddy-buddy with her that I would end up hurting her feelings when I railroaded over some of her decisions eventually. But in late December I connected with a different agency - one I am still at today... And by mid-January I was working with them instead.

I felt so lost in 2021. Outside looking in, you probably wouldn't have noticed. But mentally I felt discombobulated and useless. I made a lot of money. But I hated my day-to-day. 

And as Pluto has continued to transit the later degrees in Capricorn (there are 30 degrees for each sign - starting at 0 degrees and running up to 29 degrees), it hasn't been a cakewalk. But things have started to feel focused and productive for me in the past few weeks. And November 19th of this year - when Pluto enters Aquarius - can't come fast enough.

We will be through the election. I will be making my way through full remission of an "illness" I've been dealing with (I learned earlier this week I am technically in remission. But still in a phase where it could dial back if not careful.) I am feeling much more energetic lately. 

Things in general feel hopeful. Where many times over the past 16 years, it's felt like a struggle.

Starting all the way back in late 2008. 

And now, I will be dealing with my Pluto transiting Aquarius - my Moon sign. But it doesn't hit the 10th degree of Aquarius till 2029. And I will be dealing with an internal shift. The Moon represents the internal world.

I am ready for that. I've been dealing with that my whole life.