"Eff Those Guys!"
Like a broken record lately... "I am going to get back into my Bikram practice. I promise."
I keep saying that over and over again. But yet, I still seem to only make it to class once a week lately. And that is pathetic.
Tonight's class, to my un-surprise, was a tough one. Again. Puking almost happened. I was actually sweating for once... Something that has happened in a long time -- a proper sweat. And I couldn't do any of the forward-bending poses.
I wanted to puke that badly in class.
The postures that I was able to kick ass in... The thing that kept me going in them was this phrase in my head: "Fuck those guys."
It just sort of popped in my head out of nowhere. But I didn't know whom I was saying it about exactly.
"Why am I so angry? And whom am I angry at?" I asked myself. Anger is an expression that is contained in your Solar Plexus. Which is your "torso" area. Which is the main area you are compressing in forward bends.
I have no idea what I am holding on to, anger-wise. I don't have anything to be angry about... I think. But maybe tonight when I sleep, it will come out in my dreams. And then maybe, hopefully, tomorrow night's class will be better. And I will be able to actually do some forward bends.
I keep saying that over and over again. But yet, I still seem to only make it to class once a week lately. And that is pathetic.
Tonight's class, to my un-surprise, was a tough one. Again. Puking almost happened. I was actually sweating for once... Something that has happened in a long time -- a proper sweat. And I couldn't do any of the forward-bending poses.
I wanted to puke that badly in class.
The postures that I was able to kick ass in... The thing that kept me going in them was this phrase in my head: "Fuck those guys."
It just sort of popped in my head out of nowhere. But I didn't know whom I was saying it about exactly.
"Why am I so angry? And whom am I angry at?" I asked myself. Anger is an expression that is contained in your Solar Plexus. Which is your "torso" area. Which is the main area you are compressing in forward bends.
I have no idea what I am holding on to, anger-wise. I don't have anything to be angry about... I think. But maybe tonight when I sleep, it will come out in my dreams. And then maybe, hopefully, tomorrow night's class will be better. And I will be able to actually do some forward bends.
Comments
Yeah... yoga is a great barometer for your mental health ;-)
Try to be a little more kind to yourself maybe?
Whenever I'm fighting with the yoga, the only thing that usually helps is surrender and try to keep up a regular practice. Most importantly, practicing on consecutive days.
All the best!
:)